I thought it was time for another coffee date since the last one we’ve had was in September – long before I had Shane! Let’s jump right in and catch up, shall we?
If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I know I keep mentioning how I want to share more about my breastfeeding journey and about Shane’s nursery and I promise that eventually that will happen. I’m just not sure when.
If we were having coffee, I’d explain that I’m not sure when because these past two months have been the hardest of my life. For the longest time I couldn’t even admit that because I felt so guilty and like I should be saying that they have been the best of my life. And while I love my son with my whole heart, it doesn’t make the past two months any easier.
If we were having coffee, I’d share that the past two months have been so hard because of breastfeeding. Like I’ve mentioned just a bit before, it has not gone well. Before I had Shane I thought that if I just tried my hardest and did what I had to do, I would be successful at breastfeeding. And while I have been fighting tooth and nail these past two months – they have NOT gone at all how I have wanted. I will talk more about this when I write about my breastfeeding journey.
If we were having coffee, I’d also ask for you to pray for me because I know that the only one who can help with this hard time is God. I need peace and to be able to accept things as they are. I am even debating on going on medication to try to help with breastfeeding but don’t know if that’s the right choice, which is why I desperately need your prayers.
If we were having coffee, I’d ask how you were doing. I’d apologize for not being a better friend lately and ask for you to forgive me. Life has been all-consuming lately and I’d tell you that I hope that changes soon so we could spend more time together.
If we were having coffee, I’d mention that I don’t even recognize my own life. It’s crazy how much having a baby changes things. I’d also share that I never imagined how much I could love another person until I met my baby. And even though the last few months have been hard, I’m absolutely loving being a mom and can’t wait for all of the fun times ahead with our precious baby boy.
Thanks for stopping by and spending your time with me! I hope to be able to spend more time here soon – but no promises! Taking care of a baby is A LOT of work (especially one who doesn’t like to sleep during the day. 😉)
